October 23rd, 2002

ponytail girl

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today has been a pessimistic day. I've just been sad all day. No real reason, just because. Im really tired and lonely. I really miss Keith. Im being a pansy. I cried the whole time I was on the phone with him. Im a wuss. Hopefully I will snap out of this funk.
ponytail girl

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I am so tired. I think this is my first time of actually being on the computer today. I made carmel apples and got eggnog. I thought this would make me happier, and it worked. Sorta. Just a funk. it will pass. I did get to talk to Keith a little tonight. I think Im going to make him talk mush to me tomorrow so I can feel love. Maybe that's all this is. just wanting to feel that he cares about me. Im glad I've told myself there is no reason to stay optimistic. It's stopped me from wondering. I got all my stuff cleaned out and in the new room. It's nice in there. I have a "keith shrine" that is going to scare him when he comes home for Xmas.

Im going to get up tomorrow and head into town with my dad to meet up with my family that is coming in. So Im going to head to bed, Im exausted.