the anticipation is starting to get old. i've been trying not to get myself too worked up and curious about wether or not keith will be allowed to come home. i've been forcing myself to be optimistic since he left, and it's really exausting. Im a pessimist by nature. I've had to be the one to encourage him and tell him that he can do what he's been doing. I've shown all the support I can. Now I have to sit and twidle my thumbs, and I just can't do it. I can't wait and wonder every day what the verdict is going to be. They're going to say no. With all I've heard, there is no way he's going to come home. Some girl went AWOL and the whole base is freaking out. One person had to ruin it for everyone. Now will I let Keith know about this? Of course not. But at least accepting it now makes for less disappointment later.
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